Give it to God.

My period was late, and I was really starting to freak out.

It had not been late, in a very long time, so my thoughts went straight to pregnancy. But we were using contraception – but we all know how faulty that can be… Then I thought about my body, which after the mastectomy and reconstruction, aka tummy tuck, is not the same. The tummy tuck which removed the excess fat and skin from my abdomen to make my reconstructed breast, was skin stretched taut. Even my plastic surgeon had asked if we were finished having children because pregnancy may damage the good work he had done on my abdomen.

Then come thoughts of finances. My husband wants to retire, and I will be supporting the family. If ever you want fear to come on you and the desire for children to be gone, think about supporting your whole family on your salary. And I don’t have one yet.

I freaked out big time.

In my fear and anxiety I just had to give it to God, because all these thoughts and fears, honestly they have nowhere to go but into me and stress me out.

Thank you, Lord, that I do not have to keep the fear and anxiety that tries to stress me out. I give it to you, and lean into your word that says, ‘do not worry’.

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